Slowly Adjusting

I've been feeling a little better today. When I wrote my last post, I really was absolutely miserable to be here, in this tiny apartment and this huge city. I just didn't want to blog about that, because I knew I would start crying if I tried to write how I was feeling.

But today I'm doing better. We got a large cabinet at Wal-Mart on Saturday, and put it together, so now we have more space for unpacking food. I've unpacked several boxes today, and am finding that we have a little bit more space for stuff than I thought - still not nearly enough, but it's seeming a little less dismal to me than it was before. I even dragged the stroller out and down the stairs and took the kids on a little walk this morning. I was hoping to get some pictures of the area, and the beautiful old buildings all over - but wouldn't you know I forgot my camera! Oh well, we'll be here a while; there will be plenty of opportunities for picture taking, I suppose. Anyway, it was nice to get out of the apartment and away from all the boxes for a little while. It was a really short walk - just a couple blocks - I'm going for baby steps, a little at a time!

Salt Lake really is very big. I never thought I would live in a big city, I've always preferred slightly rural areas. You know, if there isn't a field right next door, there's at least one or two within a short distance. I like places where cows or horses are common sights, even the occasional llama in someone's yard. But Salt Lake is nothing like that - no livestock, no fields, and definitely no llamas! Just huge 4- or 6-lane roads all over the place. It seems like everything except our apartment is enormous. Even Wal-Mart is overwhelming - they have a two-level parking structure instead of a simple parking lot! The whole big city experience has been overwhelming and intimidating to me, and it's going to take me a while to adjust. So far I've gone from major dislike and terror (especially of those freeways!) to mild dislike and nervousness. But that's progress! (But I'm still terrified of the freeways)

Want to see my closet hole in the wall kitchen? I found my USB cable and was able to upload a picture I took on Saturday. I have Zaylee in the picture for size comparison.


For informational purposes: there is nothing behind the fridge. No cupboards or drawers, just wall. And I can't put anything there, like shelves, because that would block the dishwasher and take up half the kitchen. There are exactly four drawers in the kitchen - right there to the right of the oven, and they're each only about six inches wide and a foot deep. There's a little space above all the cupboards that we'll use for appliances and such. But as for large, awkwardly shaped things like my pizza stone, wok, and bamboo steamer, I just don't know where to put them! Sigh.

Yes, I'm slowly adjusting, but it will definitely take time.