That's what was going through my head over and over as I washed the dishes this evening. "I can't do everything!" But lately, if I don't do it, it doesn't get done. Jeff is still sick. He's weak, he gets very cold and dizzy easily, he's been throwing up and can't keep hardly anything down. He sleeps or just lays there a great portion of the day. I understand that he's not feeling well, and am not at all upset at him for not helping more. But I'm getting worn out! I'm stretching too thin, trying to do everything on my own, and it's just too much!
As I washed the dishes after dinner (well, some of the dishes; there's still a lot built up from the past couple of days), Zaylee was yelling to be let out of her seat, after not eating much of her dinner. Thomas was screaming because I wasn't holding him. Jeff tried to comfort him, but nothing save Mommy would suffice, and he just kept screaming. Meanwhile, I was in the kitchen washing dishes, trying desperately to keep from screaming myself. I can't make sure Zaylee eats, get her down from the table, comfort and soothe Thomas, do the dishes, try to get the living room looking okay, and stay sane, all at the same time!
Sorry that this is another rant and vent post, two in a row. The past few days have been really difficult, with Jeff being sick. And he doesn't seem to be getting better; it's more like he's getting worse! Add to all this stress, we have talks to prepare for this Sunday, and neither of us have started them yet. Oh, for a good night's sleep and a vacation!
5 comments:
Sweetie, I know money is REALLY tight right now, but it sounds like Jeff needs to go see a doctor. It's been a couple of days now, and he is probably getting nicely dehydrated, which isn't going to help. It might be just the flu, but it sounds pretty serious. 48 hours of not keeping anything down warrants a visit to the doc. At this point he should be still nauseous but able to keep more down, getting worse is not a good thing.
I'm sorry you are having such a tough time with the house and kids and everything. Please call me when you want to scream, you have my cell #. I just went through that whole "I can't do everything" deal when Mark did the base inspection, my friend could tell you I just about had a major nervous breakdown. So I know what you are going through right now. CALL ME! You can vent and scream all you want! :-) I love ya, and I will be praying for you guys that things get better, fast.
I hope things start to turn around for you guys. A visit to the doctor probably would be good. Hang in there. It's gotta get better.
I agree with the Dr. thing--he doesn't sound like he is doing too well.
I hope a better day comes soon. It is so overwhelming to feel alone, even if it is just because he is sick. Am thinking of you!
Sorry things are so rough! I really hope Jeff gets better soon, so that you can regain your sanity. It's no fun being the ONLY caretaker for so long. Hang in there and feel free to rant some more, if you need to.
I think we all have our days when we feel like we just can't do it anymore. I would seriously consider the advice from others of making a trip to the dr for Jeff; if it's continuing to get worse then you need to know what it is. I hope everyone is feeling better soon :) When Steve is sick and everyone is screaming, I let the dishes and stuff wait. They're not going anywhere and, if Steve is truly bothered, he can get up and do them. Otherwise, they don't rate high enough to worry about for me because a screaming child is much harder on my sanity than the dishes ever will be :)
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